I’m squinting but I can see……………………………

I feel like I’ve had my eyes closed for a long time. I couldn’t and didn’t want to see anything. Then after six long years of having my eyes closed I finally opened them! Opened them wide cause I wanted to take in everything that I’ve been missing out on, only to realize that I opened them too fast and was blinded by all that was to be seen! So I immediately closed my eyes for fear of what I saw! For all that I hadn’t been seeing for such a long time! It was overwhelming and it hurt. My eyes hurt so much that I didn’t want to open them again! And I told myself “Stupid! There is a reason why you’ve kept your eyes closed”.
But then I thought of the glimpses that I caught from when I opened my eyes. And I realized………………….I’ve been missing out……………….allot!
So I decided that I didn’t want to have my eyes closed anymore………..so I opened them slightly………………I’m squinting……………..but I can see now. Before you know it my eyes will open again like before! I can’t wait!

You took the words right out of my heart............

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From: David
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 11:21 AM
To: Jamie
Subject: RE: Sigh of relief

Every heartbeat is a lovesong.

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From: Jamie
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 11:06 AM
To: David
Subject: RE: Sigh of relief

You took the words right out of my heart!

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From: David
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 10:57 AM
To: Jamie
Subject: RE: Sigh of relief

Me too. Sometimes we get so used to loneliness that it's almost a comfort. A sick sort of comfort, but a comfort. Then there's a break in the loneliness and you think you see a way out, and then… nothing. And the loneliness hurts for a long time before it's comfortable again. Why why??? It's an evil cycle.

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From: Jamie
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 10:40 AM
To: David
Subject: RE: Sigh of relief

Yes! I’m a loner! Always have been! But yes! Now I’m just lonely :o(

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From: David
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 10:39 AM
To: Jamie
Subject: RE: Sigh of relief

Mine, too. I think loners at heart notice others. Or maybe the lonely notice the lonely? Or the lonely notice loners because they think they might also be lonely? Are we both loners? I was for years in school. Now I'm just lonely. We could write a whole book on loners.


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From: Jamie
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 10:30 AM
To: David
Subject: RE: Sigh of relief

LMAO!!! Stalking is fun!!!! Too bad we didn’t get a last name! Then we could have done a google search!!!! Damn!

That is true! Only loners get my attention :o)

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From: David
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 10:28 AM
To: Jamie
Subject: RE: Sigh of relief

Well, now I'm going to go there every day in the hopes of seeing him again. I'm going full on stalker mode! Gotta replace (name ommited) with someone new.

Maybe he's usually there with people, then we probably wouldn't have noticed him.

Shalom!

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From: Jamie
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 10:26 AM
To: David
Subject: RE: Sigh of relief

LMAO!!!!!!!! Yay for not being pregnant!!!!!!!!!!

I remember that text!!!! You felt (insert new word here) the next morning.

Sharing is caring!!!!!!!! :o) Funny how we’ve never seen him there before. Interesting!

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From: David
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2010 10:23 AM
To: Jamie
Subject: Sigh of relief

I finally looked at my texts. Just some silly nonsense stuff. I wonder if finally opening the texts from the night before is like waiting for that blue line to appear or not appear on a pregnancy test. Jamie, I'm not pregnant!

I remember one night I was out and I sent (name ommited) what amounted to a love letter, all by text. That was… damn, what's that new emotion called?