Whatever happened to good ole privacy? I am naturally a loud person. Out-going some might say and quite misleading to how I actually am!!! What I mean is that I am a super private person. I do not like to share my personal feeling, emotions, or even thoughts in some instances. I don’t know what it is and I’m tired of trying to figure it out. I love to be alone! I love solitude!
Now don’t get me wrong…………I don’t hate people or anything of the sort. I love people, they fascinate me. People watching is one of my favorite hobbies but when I feel like shutting away from the world I wish I could do it without people constantly wondering or asking if something is wrong. For example: I used to have a Twitter. Oh how I miss my Twitter. And I just deleted it four hours ago. Funny right!?!?!?!? Well I would have already updated it a bunch of times at this point. It’s like a mini release to no one…………or so I thought. So anyways………….come to find out that a bunch of people were following me that I actually knew!!!!!!! Some I was ok with……….some I wasn’t. I was under this false illusion that I was giving mini statements on my thoughts and state of mind and it was somehow private, yet public. I don’t know if I could properly convey how I thought/felt about it. Anyways so I would send off these updates to the World Wide Web and that was the end………..or so I thought. Then all of a sudden I start receiving these texts in relation to my Twitter’s. Now I know I’m putting it out there for everyone to read but my thought is if I don’t send it to you directly then why are you asking. Ugh, I’m all scattered in this blog. What I mean is why am I having to explain my thoughts or feelings? There is a reason why I love being alone. I accept myself. I can be myself around myself. I am the only person I can’t hide from. Ugh………I’m having mental issues apparently.
Whatever happened to good ole privacy? I am naturally a loud person. Out-going some might say and quite misleading to how I actually am!!! What I mean is that I am a super private person. I do not like to share my personal feeling, emotions, or even thoughts in some instances. I don’t know what it is and I’m tired of trying to figure it out. I love to be alone! I love solitude! 
Now don’t get me wrong…………I don’t hate people or anything of the sort. I love people, they fascinate me. People watching is one of my favorite hobbies but when I feel like shutting away from the world I wish I could do it without people constantly wondering or asking if something is wrong. For example: I used to have a Twitter. Oh how I miss my Twitter. And I just deleted it four hours ago. Funny right!?!?!?!? Well I would have already updated it a bunch of times at this point. It’s like a mini release to no one…………or so I thought. So anyways………….come to find out that a bunch of people were following me that I actually knew!!!!!!! Some I was ok with……….some I wasn’t. I was under this false illusion that I was giving mini statements on my thoughts and state of mind and it was somehow private, yet public. I don’t know if I could properly convey how I thought/felt about it. Anyways so I would send off these updates to the World Wide Web and that was the end………..or so I thought. Then all of a sudden I start receiving these texts in relation to my Twitter’s. Now I know I’m putting it out there for everyone to read but my thought is if I don’t send it to you directly then why are you asking. Ugh, I’m all scattered in this blog. What I mean is why am I having to explain my thoughts or feelings? There is a reason why I love being alone. I accept myself. I can be myself around myself. I am the only person I can’t hide from. Ugh………I’m having mental issues apparently.
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